ARTIST | Kiid Shay
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The Real Me.. |
| Posted: 02/07/10 18:24:28 | Tag: Freestyle.. |
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I be thinking where the **** this **** come from My baby tripping I wonder where we go from here Shit is already bad enough for a brand new year Nigga and bitches judging me because of what they hear About the kiid on what she did from here and there Fuck y'all dont know what i been thru for me have this attitude Yall dont know my thoughts and emotions putting me in this mood And **** what yall think I aint tryna be rude Its just everything thats going on got me kinda confused Am i doing something wrong or is anything past due? Fuck...what i feel is killing me Conclusions on crazy situations is drilling me While im feeling trapped, everybody else living free And i ask God, "why me?" Free me from this pain which is hard to maintain Im hoping that you would tame the demons that remains Inside my soul Please let me go 'cause I need to grow In order to control the lows In my hectic life Take an example of this strife When i had pulled out a knife Thought about slitting my wrist twice Suicidal hypes Me and views of my blood flowing left me standing still Which is why i pop the pills To get that buzzing and the chills, got me feeling thrilled I know its against the law but my decisions are strong-willed So they will be followed 'cause they are made by me And they will be complete Shit nobody control me Nobody know me Nobody can show me The brighter side of how everything is suppose to be Smh.. I wish I wasnt in this place where people call me a disgrace All my exes up in my face, asking me how could i do them wrong Creating sad, love songs transforming into a movie gone wrong Crazy plots come along, stirring trouble Wish i had a double So i wont have to deal with this **** I knew this **** was gon hit Cause my stupid **** knew the consequences Yeah drama is the need my stupid **** wanna quenches Petty **** with bitches Dirty **** with niggas Nobody ever knew so go figures I was the cause that triggered Using seduction with my thick and curvy figure And niggas go crazy, not knowing they blind By the lovegame Im throwing their way but they didnt seem to mind When they cross the line And leaving their girlfriends behind I think its about time To stop spreading darkness and shine Some sunlight so everything can be okay Smile everyday and be able to say "yeah im okay" I hope putting all this **** out in the open make me feel better And everybody get to know me better Dont know how long im gon this **** go further Damn my mom tripping She act like im tryna hurt her She see me as my sister and my sis got pregnant She was lazy as **** and took everything for granted Got beat by her ex and put a hole in her own wall She got an attitude towards me and she dont even call I love my sis but damn what you go through isnt my problems Desperate for money and damn on jay, how the **** you gon rob him? Those was the choices you made And some nights you got laid In order to take care of ur daughter Sometimes i wonder about the **** you done taught her How the **** she knows about sex and she only five I hope to god she doesnt grow up to be a hoe with a high sex drive I tried... To be supportive But the mistakes you be making is making it harder To call you my sister Happy times we had and i really miss her I didnt wanna write this **** and diss her I dont wanna just be heard I need somebody to listen Imma pour out and reveal every thought until nothing feel missing I lost my daddy last year and it fucked me up real bad He wasn't only my father He was the bestest friend i ever had He wasnt perfect and he made mistakes that kinda made me mad Had me thinking his death was my fault But couple years back while he was out Cheating on my mom and didnt give a **** about getting caught Gambling his stress away and leaving everyday Said he love me and do whatever to make me happy no delays And the lessons he tried to portrayed So I wont end up going through the routes my sister went through He knew that **** was gon be hard for me to venture I think my mama got a new man Damm 4months and already she got a new man Now im gon have to go through some bullshit again I already know it before the **** even started All i know is imma hurt him if that **** turn cold-hearted He gave a bad first impression, acting like he was retarded When i met him in the living room Next thing he talking to my mom about the bedroom Nigga im in the next room Listening to the convo He said he gonna buy a condo I thought he said condom Kinda had me scared cause i thought he was gon try to enter my mom's dome Goddamn wtf is gon happen? He said Dont worry There will be no problems Fuck on outta here cause i dont trust you Im not in the mood to be stressing when my mama gon need rescue Make everything worse when she had trusted you So **** you Everyday, I try my best Attempted to be best At everything But people wanna judge and they bring Drama to the point Where i need a joint to release my stress Figured the best way would be sex And these niggas so tempting The truth is they pimping And attempting To get the clean virgin's kitten Shit is so smitten But i guess that's how it is then Thats why i didnt give it up when You was expecting it Playing yall asses like cards Now yall regretted it Looking like retards Thats why yall see me go hard At spittiing, im probably not the best But i do say real **** nothing less.... |
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